Sunday, May 28, 2006

anak emas!!

Bila simah citer kenangan dia kat SMK Mahsuri, aku pun teringat jugak kenangan aku...konon-konon lerrr hehehe....Seingat aku le...aku kenai ngan Si SImah nie masabaru daftar form 1...masa tue Simah ala-ala Cikgu Bedah(sorry to say...last-last jadi cikgu jugak dia!) pasai apa aku kata Si Simah ala-ala cikgu Bedah, dia pakai cermin mata macam watak Cikgu Bedah dalam filem adik manja....hahaha!! tapi masa tue Si Simah mmg marah kalau kita pinggil dia Cikgu Bedah! kenangan-kenangan...:))

Simah ngan aku berlainan kelas masa form 1 pasal dia pandai sikit dok kelas RK(rancangan khas) aku lak sebelah kelas dia kelas Perdagangan 1...kelas RK budak2 cina tak boleh masuk, khas untuk budak2 melayu yang cemerlang dalam penilaian darjah 5 masa sekolah rendah...hak nk masuk kelas RK mesti dapat penailan darjah 5 2A ke atas...Kelas aku mmg menjadi kelas pertama terbaik bagi budak-budak cina...tention gilerr!! mmg setiap kali periksa no 1 sampai no 10 mmg depa pegang!! kalau bernasib baik ada lerr terselit sorg dua muka budak melayu...

Saturday, May 27, 2006

Sense of abandonment?

Form 3..yup..the big exam (adoi..aku lupa lak nama exam form 3 ni..apa dia yek?) somebody pls remind me.. teruknya aku...

ok..u can see my form 3 classmates in the picture below right? i mean the picture in my previous entry.. our class was supposed to be the best class in form 3 in our school... i tell you la... diaorang memang otak bergeliga...sekor sekor otakkkkkkkkk...cun sious.. the competition was there ..to score the best ..

My chinese friends..? they have made their own plans..most of them..after the ..ah..aku dah ingat..SRP exam, they were planning to further their studies in Chung hwa chinese school in Alor Setar (if i am not mistaken..or was it near kuala kedah? )..anyway..They were planning to rent somewhere and go to school there....the chinese students do that i suppose..chung Hwa perhaps was or probably is a good reputation school among chinese.. Yup..most of my chinese friends went there for their form 4 and form 5.

The indians? nope..no indian in our class..dunno why..I cant remember having any indian friends either..it would have been nice to..i mean i used to have indian friends back in my primary chool in kampung kastam Penang..but not in Mahsuri..


The Malays..?? Yup.. most of them scored. Quite a lot of them went to MRSM..some went to Sekolah Asrama Penuh..Some went to technical school on the mainland.. only i think less then 10 of us were destined to further our education in Mahsuri?


Did i score so badly in my SRP? Nope. I did score good results.I dunno why i was not selected to go anywhere....maybe no luck? i dunno..the point is..i did not get any offer. I was devastated. The rest went ..even my best friend uraini..(mimi the other best friend moved to alor setar after that)..and there i was...still there..feeling totally abanoned.


I furthered my form 4 n 5 in the science stream. There were only 15 of us in the stream. Normally for any school to have only that much students, that class should be closed down. I suppose our principle managed to convince the people at the ministry to let it stay open.After all..Mahsuri at that time was the only one school in langkawi with form 4 n 5. To close the science stream would be a disaster to the school image (i am just assuming this).

Anyway, i made new friends..people who joined our class from other schools like Padang Matsirat n air hangat.. since there were only 15 of us, our class were inside the form 6 building..away from the rest of the form 5 classes (social science and art stream classes).I personally think that itwas not a wise move on the admin's part coz there we were..totally separated from the rest of our batch... How were we to be able to socialize with our friends? There we were...the science stream students..supposedly to be the best (hahah i will laugh to that) and we were cut off from our friends..except for recess time (i was busy with my prefect duty anyway)..the only time we managed to exchange smiles was when we changed lab for chemistry, physcs n biology! aiyooo..ini macam macam mana nak tackle budak hensem dari kelas lain ooo..so kitaorang asyik dok ushya abang form 6 ja la..(ni kira kes lain utk entry lain)..

The sense of abandonment was still there..even till the end of my secondary school life. Now that i think about it... I was there for a reason i suppose.. ada hikmah disebalik kegagalan.. just think.. if i had gone somewhere else..to further my studies.. i would not be able to have the honour of knowing those special teachers in Mahsuri.. The school is a small town school that students have a much closer ties between teacher-student. My friends are also down to earth people...they still are..

And if i had gone to another school down on the mainland..i would not have been able to *bore* u all with my *learn a word a day* with khairul cute n pendek (the junior) sampai korang pon dah nak muntah nak dengar.. Or i would not have been able to join competitions upon competitions at the school, district, state and even national level..Instead of being in the team that won the school 3rd place in Quiz Pengetahuan Agama islam -national level..if i had gone to another school...i may not join any of those..and be just a nobody..well..at least in Mahsuri..i think i was somebody (ni aku dok perasan sorang sorang la ni) hehehehehe


My SPM? hehe dont ask.. I think i broke the principal's heart with my result. But frankly speaking.. i did not study. True..everybody had hoped that i would score excellently..(After all i always scored almost the perfect results in all exams).. but my heart was not into the exams.. my aim was to just get enough (6 credits) to enter the course i was aiming for...Add math..aku tak pandang langsung..saja ja bagi fail.. (maybe i was rebellious inside??) Alhamdulillah..i got it..the course i was aiming for..Though..now looking at me..instead of a career that involves earning money..i am in a career that involves cooking, cleaning and the lot.

I am not complaining. I am happy and I think i am blessed with the life i have. And My life in S.M.Mahsuri will always be among those things i cherish most of all....we live life only once...cherish what we've got..at least i try to..



Kat atas stage masa final quiz kat pusat islam
aku-mat G and che ros
(si azura reserve..dia masa tu duduk ngan ustazah tengok kitaorang jawab soalan)
soalan soalan tahap peringkat agama atas...kitaorang mana nak bole jawab..
Tapi kitaorang dapat masuk final sampai peringkat kebangsaan tu kira ok la kan..
lawan sekolah alam shah lagi..


Baju kaler pink berkain songket..aku dipaksa pakai tudung masa tu.
Jenuh si ustazah n azura tolong pakaikan..
Aku MANA rETİ Pakaİ TUDUNG MASA TU!!!
anyway..kenangan..kenangan


Saturday, May 20, 2006

Form 3



i found this among the rare pics i have of my form 3 classmates..and guess what? on the back..there are signatures as well!! Now that i think of it...how come i dont remember having an indian friend in mahsuri? Is it me or were there no indians in that school?? Friends..do u remember?

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Jasa Mu Di Kenang

I have always memorized this song..coz teachers have always been those people i hold close to my heart ..I would like to dedicate this song to all the teachers who have played such an important role in helping me to develop the person i am..

Jawa mu kan dikenang
Disanjung setiap masa
Walau di mana
Kau tetap mulia

Nama mu sungguh harum
Bagai sekuntum bunga
Jasa Baktimu
Disanjung dipuja

Walau engkau berada di mana
Pesan mu diingat
Walau di mana tidak dilupa
Hingga akhir hayat

Pada Tuhan yang Esa
Kami pohonkan doa
Agar sejahtera
Buat selamanya


To all those teachers...THank You for everything... Halalkan Segalanya..

Selamat Hari Guru...

Selamat Hari Guru itulah yang ingin aku ungkapkan pada insan-insan yang pernah mendidik aku sehingga aku menjadi insan yang berguna...tanpa insan 'special' ini, entah apa yang aku jadi sekarang...Alhamdulillah...Lihatlah dunia!! aku sudah menjadi insan yang berguna...jutaan terima kasih pada insan-insan yang pernah mendidik aku selama ini...antaranya Cikgu Fauziah Abd Ghani, Miss Ch'ng (guru kelas form1) , Cikgu Azalan Mustafa, Ustazah Zainab, Cikgu Abd Manan(arwah), Cikgu Md Saad, Cikgu Abdullah sani (guru kelas form 2), Ustazah Fathiyah Yahya, Cikgu Norzie othman(guru kelas form 5), Cikgu Wan Dalilah(guru kelas form 4), Teacher Noraini, Cikgu Razali, Cikgu Faridah, Cikgu Talib, Cikgu Jamilah (guru kelas form 3), Sir Sukhdev Sing, Cikgu Razak, Cikgu Rozita, Cikgu Ahmad Ismail Eh Abdullah, Cikgu Latipah dan lain-lain...tak ingat sangat! namun jasa anda semua tetap ku kenang sepanjang hayat!

Sunday, May 14, 2006

tiru tiru

Ni pengalaman aku masa tingkatan satu.... Ari tu ada la quiz sejarah...cikgu tak asing asingkan pon sesapa..satu grup tu kalau aku tak salah ada 6 meja sambung sambung (eh betul kabahasa aku guna ni..ala tibai ja la).. ada satu soalan tu pasal negeri 9. Biasala kan..mak pak aku kan orang negeri..aku tak ingat pon soalan tu apa dia..tapi aku ingat yg jawapan dia *luak*...aku tau jawapan tu tapi aku tengok si uraini tak tau..jadi aku pon tulis jawapan tu dlm satu kertas kecik..aku baling kat uraini yg duduk dua meja opposite aku..uraini tak ambik..aku pon heran..rupanya cikgu sejarah nampak aku baling kertas tu...dia ambik kertas tu..terus dia tengok tulisan dlm kertas tu dan cakap utk soalan tu aku ngan uraini dapat 0...tu la the first dan the last time aku cuba tipu dlm exam..tu la..nak tipu tak reti..ada hati lak nak tipu tipu..bangang bangang..

Saturday, May 06, 2006

Writing board




I just have a question that keeps bugging me ever since our school days... Our
"black board"
..ala...papa hitam..u know what i mean.. But why do we call it black board? Yes. it is a board. But black?? I have never written on a board that is black!!
every board i had accountered was actually
"GREEN!!"
why dont we all call it green board? if we can call the white board (esp those used in form 6 classes)...white board...why a board in green called black board?? Is this a generalization of word..macam kalau diapers..instead of calling them lampin..we normally call them pampers (in Malaysia) and prima (in turkey)???


Hmm.... This is something we should think about..So if you know or want to speculate the history of why we call the green coloured board a black board..pls do..

The influence of Teachers

Teachers...

In a school environment, the teachers are no doubt among the most important figures in schools..I mean who r u kidding. If u mention schools, the direct connection is teacher - student.

I remember when i was in my Secondary school years..kat mana lagi la kan? Mesti la kat Mahsuri ..I had seen many types of teachers..but these two especially stick in my mind..Not mentioning names of course..one was my BM teacher and one was my Math teacher..i wont tell you which form too..it is not in my intention to give anyone any bad name.. this is just an example...

This one BM teacher, his routine in teaching us was like this.. He would enter the class. He would say "open your text book page this and this...ok you (mentioning someone's name) ..read the writing on that page loudly and then everyone answer the questions on that xx page ...." or he would write a title on the green board and told us to make an essay on it.

I used to have this great worry in my mind...like..how would i improve my BM? My very already limited and fragile BM was in need of BiG help.. i do meant Bigggggg help...A malay i am..but..my BM (esp the formal BM) was and is like...malu nak cakap...and like most students, i was totally dependent on my teachers to *show me the way*.. Alhamdulillah ...yup..very very Alhamdulillah la... the teacher teaching us BM the next year....was ok...

And in my personal opinion, the best BM teacher mahsuri had seen in my schooling years was cikgu Lat Da...She may be a siamese by race..but phewwwwwwwww!! Man!! i tell you!! She has the perfect BM and the best part of all..she taught us BM perfectly!! Just imagine, personally i was just aiming for c6 in my SPM (credit is enough for me) and with her help..i got c3!!i wont be suprised if she is now a Cikgu Pakar BM.


And the other teacher..she taught me Math.She was new to our school that year.If i am not mistaken, she just got transferred from a boarding school. While teaching us, she kept telling us how very good her students in her previous school was. How perfect they were to her bla bla bla.. (Maybe she resented to be tranferred to a small town school? i dunno) The whole class subconsciously (we never planned it) retaliated by failing that subject. Can u imagine the whole class failing maths? And there we were..supposedly the best class. The next year..Alhamdulillah we got another teacher..She had managed to make us love maths again..she had given us back our faith and regained our interest for that very important subject.

Yes..it is true... you cannot blame your teacher for the failing u have education wise. Yes.. it is also true that every student should be responsible for his or her own learning. But, it is also true that a teacher plays a very big role in either making a student either love or hate a particular subject.

I shudder in fear if i ..in my very short career as a teacher years ago...had made a student..any student hate the subject i had taught...

"To err is human..to forgive is divine"
And i may have erred subconsciously.. Allah korusun (May Allah forbid)

And to every teacher who had crossed my way..teaching me...guiding me...


Thank you for everything.

Halalkan segala ilmu yang cikgu cikgu pernah bagi...
Jasamu tetap dikenang..

May Allah bless you all!!

Dan next month(awal june) Ustazah Fathiyah nak mai my flat...tak sabar nak jumpa ustazah.....sesapa geng mahsuri yg rasa teringin nak melawat istanbul ..sila la datang...my home ni apartment ja..kecik ja...tapi hati kami besar...so u guys r welcome to come anytime ....kalau tak cukup space..korang bole tido kat bath tub..hehehehehe

Friday, May 05, 2006

Soalan..

A continuation from my last entry...about geng mahsuri...Ataupun..nak generalise kan ka yg geng mahsuri sebagai sesapa saja yg pernah masuk sekolah mahsuri? in a broader perspective so that sesapa yg nak join.can join in??.. (heheh mcm la ada ramai budak mahsuri yg jenguk blog ni la kan? heheheh tak per tak per... sikit sikit lama lama jadi bukit kan kan? what do u guys think?